I am crying because I can’t sleep
I was reading a book here with you
The sound of the rain knocks on the
window
“So we will keep reading tomorrow”
As you mark the page we had stopped on
And then off to bed I would go
I say “I want to go out to play”
Even though I know what you will say
But I still keep trying because I hate it
It would be far too convenient
If my pain was just some ailment
I repeated “sorry” for quite a bit
When it begun it circled through the
world I knew
But it wasn’t something that I could have
said to tell you
I do not meet your eyes because you had
said that that was not allowed
Because there was something charming held
here within the world that I found
The world that I had hated when I was so
frustrated
But I knew that I loved you, so I changed
the way I lived
Meet someone who always cares, someone
who will be right there
And take a deep breath of happiness and
let it
Create a future sighted as you head off
to bed
I look forward to that one fantasy that
forms as I sleep
In the calm of nights that usher sleep
As the winds pass through the trees again
It is comforting to hear the leaves
rustle
Maybe there will be sunshine today
Even if my chest aches anyway
I will not let pain bring weight on my
soul
You had dozed off, but I guess that’s fine
Because these thoughts I see in my mind
Are memories of when I was younger
You and dad are the ones that I think of
When I think of who I say I love
But time has passed since it had begun
Then one person appeared before me on
that day
I found that my love was gladness put in
words I can’t say
You’re always with me, right beside me
with your healthy smile shown
We can both love this wide world with
eyes that show how we have grown
As we pass by the station, I feel a
strange sensation
The month has finally ended as we cry and
laugh right here
I want to hug you once more, I’m much
stronger than before
But I still think that even now
Someday a future will appear here and
knock on doors I’ve kept closed
But it’s fine because we can say goodbye
with smiles that we’ve showed
Suddenly our farewell was said without
pause
Within this world that I had learned to
love
But the goodbye scares me when I may
think
Of that world in books we both had
dreamed of
I’m sorry that it ends this way
“I love you” are the words that I say
As this world opens up to a new day…
As the rain hits the window pane again
I am reading this journal once more
As the tears fall both in and outside
I forget what we were searching for
But I found the bookmark that we placed
In the story we had bravely faced
So I read here as I lie awake
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