Bathed in the sunlight that poured down
from the sky above
I was glaring at people who passed
I cut through early and late as I stood
there to wait
Until you finally got here at last
I frown as if I were angry at everyone
now
As I avoid the eyes that meet mine
“Good morning!” is what he said as he
stands ahead
And I pass right by him and leave him far
behind
If I thought about it, our eyes met just
a bit
But nothing comes to my mind in response
But still I don’t understand why I can’t
see his face
Without my heart beginning to race…
The sun I found shining above was
brighter as I turned to face it
And the throbbing in my chest was
something, but I couldn’t place it
And this feeling in my heart was gross
but somehow that was still fine
What is it? This strange feeling that is
mine?
If I am caught here by surprise, my face
reveals my inner feelings
And by some odd mystery my voice sounds
rather unappealing
I still don’t quite get this situation
that I’m stuck in anew
‘Cause of that, I feel like a fool to you
Today our long yawns still go on as class
still proceeds
Just the two of us sit in this room
I still am worried a bit about how this
may look
As the radio plays some random tune
The me who stood up and sighed then was
still unprepared
It was obvious what I had missed
The headphones I wore to fake my own
deaf-state
Were never plugged in to anything at all
“If time can pass by, you’d still forget
it, right?”
That’s the way that these things work, or
at least I hope
But still I wonder why I still feel I
should lie
I’m so angry my words within make me
choke
Though you said “Convey everything
through attitudes you want to display”
What I feel still makes me flustered and
I have to lash out some way
And this feeling that continues is a
problem even now
And it seems that I’m too weak-kneed
somehow
“It seems like you are in a good mood” is
what he says in his message
“No, I’m angry!” is what I say when I
pinch his cheeks in outrage
It’s that thoughtful disposition that
makes me retaliate then
And that’s how this “today” will end
again
One more time I will face the sun and
look upon his fragile brightness
Saying “Wait here for a bit” as I breathe
in before this harsh test
Though my head is throbbing here, I feel
like I’ve accomplished something
But it’s still not enough to fix this
mess
I want to tell him how I feel as I run heedless
of my footing
I don’t understand this feeling but my
legs will keep me moving
And before the sun will set over another
pointless “today”
Somehow I want to find the words to say
Really I want to tell him anyway
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