Years may pass, but I still can see your
shadow
And my feelings have gotten stronger, you
know?
As I kneeled down, I had drawn out a photo
of us
In the sun, we had walked alone together
The blurry figures ahead were our shadows
The summer heat met my eyes once again
without fuss
“Don’t mind me” just leave me alone to
myself, why don’t you?
I had brushed aside your warm hand
“No. I won’t let you go” you said as you
Reached again to try to understand
“Just be quiet” I had walked ahead before
you
Without even a glance back
Where is your heart finally cracked?
If I’m wise, then I cannot face the
future
I have no choice, so let me rot here
It would be nice if I could travel back
and disappear
Years may pass, but I manage to keep
living
I repeat words as if I believe them
But still I know that I can’t reach to
you ever again
And so I say that it doesn’t matter, let
me die slowly
As I hold my hand that is shaking
And it’s cause of my flaws that I feel
like my heart is slowly breaking
If the summer can show what my dreams
really mean then
Let me go back to when you were here
In those days when I was flustered, when
you had mustered the
Words that showed me you were sincere
As I passed my 18th birthday
I found myself trapped in a strange way
I see the silhouettes that we cast blur
and expand outward
Here beneath the sun that’s burning,
upon this world that keeps turning
“Let’s play again” was what I was sure I
had heard
“I’m concerned” is what she had said to
me there
As I lived out my days without care
I still can’t tell if your sadness is
only pretend
In a daze, this day passes unaffected
As it keeps pace with what is expected
I still feel warmth in my hand that you
held back then
I still see my old dream that can’t come
true any longer
I will accept that you’re long gone
What I see as I sleep is a secret I keep
Because I know I can’t move on
“But that means that you can’t gaze out
to tomorrow’s sunrise”
But I really don’t care about that
I had reached out with my hands again,
with a different purpose then
As a way to cover my eyes
Only 18, but already tarnished
Today I prayed for my salvation
Because I clung to what I can remember of
your smile that I saw then
Under suns that burn away at my skin
I ask for a way to erase that sin
And then I found my breath had stopped
and chose to fade away
“Can you hear me now?” was what I had
heard as I fell
The voice was lost, but I’m sure I could
tell
I reached out then to warm my hands here
once again
The young boy prayed under the hot sun
And stood up in the days that begun
The summer days that we all see will
never change unless we will it
“I had died. I’m sorry about that”
Should we leave flowers where we once
sat?
I don’t want you to say those sad things
again, don’t leave me here
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