I said to “go away, don’t bully me again”
I had to tremble then with all I had to
bear
I was so scared to feel that was lonely there
It felt like “courage” went and left
without a care
There was a summer rain that soaked me to
the bone
And I had begged for it to get who I am
now
As it soaked into me, I took it as my own
“You won’t bother me, would you?” is what
I asked somehow
“Let’s become friends”, like that. Those
simple words were what you said
I wanted to say something more, but you
didn’t stop for me, but instead
I heard the loud voice born of tragedy
Knock on my hand as it broke free
Saying “They’re a bother, the heat haze
grew hotter
“I hate you”, “just die already”
My inner thoughts screamed out at me
They called me weak and cowardly
If I cannot speak out, they continue to
shout until my eyes cannot see
The noise of the web that I’m caught in
Is punishment for having a “dream”
That comes to my mind again as
retribution begins
Today the voice pulled at me as I walked
along
It flowed through me again when my dreams
were long gone
Looking through other’s eyes, I stole
their paradigm
But still I felt the hate that watched me
all the time
Let’s both escape and run away without a
glance
Here I can’t breathe and I know there’s
no second chance
If I avoid the eyes of people within
sight
I’d quietly dash far away and fade into
the night
In the silence of the woods, with no
destination marked ahead
I was scared and alone again, but there
was that place that this path had led…
I could hear my voice narrate my life
“Today I’m waiting for clearer skies
Anyone around me? I am pretty lonely”
There’s no one there, that’s no big
surprise
The voice of thought reflects the boy
That I was once when I couldn’t choose
“Do you fear your feelings? Do they send
you reeling as you try to change tomorrow?”
“That’s not true at all” a voice said
then
A story that I opened again
It showed me a path that I forgot, and so
I go…
The crouching girl ahead that I could see
Said something then that had stuck with
me
“This world of ours will crumble away
But I feel that this dream can still stay”
My inner voice said “I’m still scared”
My tearful voice said it was not prepared
But if it could be saved just like a
picture to be shared…
The feelings that budded today
Knocked on the door and had to say
“I want you to know that everything is alright”
You won’t cry alone, look to our light
If I embrace and laugh with ease
The voice within me may finally cease
I think that my heartbeats find a way to
repeat the pattern they had back then
As I start to walk again past the door
That kept me from seeing something more
I listened for that inner voice to appear
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